Posted in Appreciation, love of my life, thankful

A Thank You For All Who Have Reached Out To Our Family

It’s been a rough couple of weeks since my husband passed. He was such a huge part of my life. I didn’t even realize how much until he was gone. The sadness and tears come when I think about what I’ve lost. And I think about it all the time because he is everywhere I turn.

He’s fixing our favorites for breakfast––bacon, eggs, and cinnamon rolls. He’s sitting on the couch laughing at something funny on the tv. He’s sitting next to me on the porch drinking his coffee while I drink my tea. He’s giving our dog Bella lots of love and belly rubs. He’s standing right next while I’m washing the dishes.

I know that eventually things will settle down. That time will heal the loss, but it feels very far away sometimes.

Surprisingly, I’ve been able to move forward to some degree. Some moments I even manage to feel okay. One of the things that has helped is remembering all the time we had together. We had twenty-one years of marriage. That’s a lot of memories, and a large majority of them were good ones.

Another help has been the large outreach of love from many friends and family. If there could be a good side to this whole experience, it would be the amazing amount of phone calls, texts, facebook messages, and cards I’ve received in the last two weeks.

I wanted to take a moment to send out this thank you to all who have reached out to me, all who allowed me to call/text/message to express my grief, all who were kind enough to send much needed donations, and those who were able to come and spend a little time with Caleb and myself last week. All of it has been such a huge blessing, and I appreciate it very much. It’s helped make an unbearable experience a little easier.

I’m slowly starting to make some plans for what comes next. There’s still a lot of uncertainty, but it’s getting a little easier to move forward. I know Dean would want Caleb and I to do what makes us happy, so at least I know what to shoot for. I’m just trying to adjust to what happy looks like without him there too.

Appreciation helps me stay positive, so I try to live there as much as I can, because even though this is a hard transition, there’s still so much to be thankful for. I’m thankful for the great memories I have with Dean. I’m grateful for all the love I’m receiving from so many people. I am thankful for the new (and closer) bonds I’m making with friends and family since Dean passed. And I am thankful that I have grown enough to see the good spots even in the bad.

Above is a video Caleb and I put together for the family memorial we had for Dean last week. It’s a little long (what can I say, I love taking pictures), but I’m sharing it for those who would like to get a small taste of some of the awesome moments our family has had. I hope you enjoy.

Posted in celebrating, love of my life, thankful

Celebrating The Life Of Dean Griffin

On November 24th our family suffered a great loss. My husband Dean Griffin passed away. I’m still processing this loss. He was an amazing man, and we had a fantastic twenty-one years together. I feel incredibly blessed to have had him in my life, and to honest, I believe he’s still with me and my son. A few times since he passed, I’ve felt his hand on my shoulder telling me it’s going to be alright.

I write this post because I want to celebrate him, especially on Thanksgiving Day. Yes, I am sad, but I am so thankful for my time with him. So, yeah maybe he isn’t with us physically this Thanksgiving, but there were many others that he was. We always had this tradition at our Thanksgiving meal, we would each say three things we were thankful for, and always his number one was our family.

One of my favorite things about Dean was his smile. I always commented on it, telling him it was as big as the sun. He also gave these amazing bear hugs. You know you were hugged by the time he got done with you. lol…

He was a happy-go-lucky guy who kind of shrugged things away. I always admired that about him, because I always seemed to take things too seriously. But he helped remind me that life was meant to be fun and enjoyed, especially when he got his goofy side going. No matter how serious I was, I couldn’t help but laugh.

One thing everyone could say about Dean was that he had a big heart. He wanted so desperately to help people in any way he could. That’s why he spent over half of his career as an emergency medical worker. It was a very satisfying job to him, but it took it’s toll too. He was extremely grateful for the time off during the pandemic. He managed to do things and explore in a way he never got to before. His last year and a half was the happiest of his life, mine too.

Some of the things he enjoyed was going to the beach, going for walks with me and our dog Bella, talking tech with our son, playing video games, watching anything related to Star Wars, spending time in the backyard in his hammock, laughing at TikTok videos, and doing research on the internet about anything and everything.

He also loved to satisfy his curiosities. He often said, “Don’t get me curious about something, because then I’ll have to figure it out.”

I don’t know what the future holds for my son and I. It seems really overwhelming and scary now that my best friend has left. Dean and I had been a team for so long, I’m not sure how to do it on my own. I know some big changes are coming. One of the biggest things that has helped is the many phone calls and texts I’ve been receiving from family and friends. Thank you so very much. It means a lot.

I continue to ask for positive thoughts and prayers please as we figure out what comes next. And if you feel inclined, we would also appreciate donations to help us through this transitional period of our lives.

Also, give the people you love an extra hug this Thanksgiving. You never known it might be the last one.

Thank you Dean Griffin for being my best friend for 21 years. You are loved and deeply appreciated.

Posted in a guided journal, Appreciation, journaling, writing

New Release! I Feel Appreciation For… A Guided Journal

After spending a few months using the writing prompts in this book myself, and making some adjustments, this new guided journal is ready to go!

Appreciation is such an important emotion to build, allowing us to live fuller and happier lives. This guided journal makes it easy to spend a few minutes each day embracing what we already have, so to ready us for far more to come.

To start things off, I created an appreciation affirmation that really resonated with me. Then there are three basic writing prompts to dive into what it is that is appreciated. There is enough pages in this book for three months of daily use.

Below is the offical book blurb.

The more we appreciate, the more we discover that we have to appreciate. It’s a cycle of positivity that can fill our cup up so much that it can truly transform our lives and allow dreams to come true. All it takes is the consistent redirection of focusing on all the good in our life, instead of focusing on the things we don’t have. And that work can be as simply as writing down a few appreciated things each day as regularly as possible. This guided journal is a wonderful first step in that effort to gradually make this positive life change a regular habit.

With this holiday season coming up, I feel Appreciation For… is a great gift to yourself or for someone you know. And if you use it and like it, please post a review on Amazon.

Also, I am in the process of making this journal and its predecessor, I Feel Peaceful because…, available as digital journals. I will make an announcement when they are completed.

Happy Journaling!